What do you do with uncertainty

One Day I woke up – I do not know when it started, but there it was: this feeling of uncertainty. I couldn’t explain it, I couldn’t grasp it, but something had changed.

I tried to brush it away with distractions. I tried to make it smaller by setting strict limitations. I tried to dissolve it by measuring and testing every part of it meticulously. I tried to chase it away by repelling it. But when I looked into myself, it was still there.

I questioned myself – what if this feeling becomes the new normal?

What if the world had changed forever? What if I had to learn to adapt to the new world out there?

I was afraid – afraid not to be able to readjust, afraid of becoming overstrained, afraid of not being needed anymore.

It made me feel alone. It made me feel aggressive sometimes and sometimes sad. I was too tired to try. The uncertainty felt even more uncertain and unapproachable.

But then one day, when I decided to accept the feeling as a reality, I suddenly sensed a new longing growing inside me: A wish for self-determination, a wish to be fully seen – the entire complexity of myself.

The uncertainty contained a promise that a new culture could open up: one which acknowledged that we are all different from one another, one where everyone can be seen as an individual with unique needs, and where you might just feel the feeling of “being all right” just the way you are.

The uncertainty became my helper. It pulled me out of the shadows into the bright sunlight, where my unique beauty could be seen for the first time without any restrictions.

The uncertainty opened up new opportunities to continue to learn, not to become too comfortable, and not to miss out on the richness and diversity of the World.

It teaches us about new chances that come ever and ever again.